Beliefs, Stupidity, Ignorance, Morality.

felt rushed to eat sushi again, almost choked many times.

felt as if 'many people wanted to steal nutrients from my food by participating in eating with me - at least in mind, use of people's belief & speech to make me go eat more soon'.

loss of style as well, as i could not clean teeth ('bathing teeth' thought appeared again), i was hurried to write this on facebook & elsewhere. perhaps if i waited however, i would either lose memory & fail to write or lose too much of toothpaste then eat again... etc.

what's the difference between nutrients & calories?

people believe in what they want, afterall.

people do what they believe in, using tools perhaps, not only technologically advanced or inhuman.

Perceptions, Truth, Delusions.

occasionally (rarely) i do have visions, not only insights.

insights are common, often seem true.

visions are perhaps true, perhaps not.

if they are delusional, false, i'd call them: 'hallucinations', 'visual delusions', 'visual omams', etc.

these are words used in psychology, perhaps in psychiatry as well.

in truth i do not know if what i perceive, either in form of insights, voices, thoughts, visions, hallucinations, etc ... or even touch experiences or other ... is true, what is false.

what's truth?

what's delusion, insanity?

i think that Wisdom & Compassion lead to Awakening, to Truth, to Enlightened Love, to Enlightenment.

See also, if You wish: Perceptions, Truth, Delusions on Producing Buddhism, Perceptions, Truth, Delusions on Parapsychology, Magick, Spiritual & Related.

Jung, famous Psychologist called himself 'Empiric', i read.

Pressure.

feeling pressure on left ear's nervous system.

perhaps imagined perhaps not.

still pain is significiant.

Choking with Food.

occasionally i feel forced to eat, to the point of almost choking with food.

i don't want nor like to eat so much at all.

i don't want to leave prematurely nor rape woman i Love.

occasionally though the insanity & emotions are too strong however & i feel so desperate & cheated so i wish for my death to end this lie & slavery that i go through.

then i have suicide attempts or something like that.

etc.

perhaps someone forces me for desperation in a way or another to enforce cerain changes by my desperate attempts.

or cuts costs that way.

i do not know details or if it's true at all.

Cage without Bars.

i think that i have too many automatic uninterruptable reactions leading to eating, losing style or suicide.

spending money as well.

more or less subconscious.

shouts, screams & insane mind states as well.

i hope someone won't turn me into 'zombie-monk' or 'pair differently' with someone i don't Love, denying me speech as well.

or make me live alone for too long against my will.




'Total Hypnosis' by Urszula,
'Cage without bars'.

More about Insanity.

- What is Insanity?
- There are many different insane mind states. Basicly anything mental that hinders someone succeeding in life is more or less insane - loss of control over one's actions in many cases, spasms, shouts, etc. Loss of focus & concentration, delusions, lack of criciticism & distance toward one's more or less delusionary mindset. Memory loss, aggression & perception problems as well. There can be clear thinking (it's not insane to think clearly, lucidly) combined with other symptoms, as shouts or depressing moods, excess fear or mania for example. In my opinion egoism is as well insanity.