Took Money again ...

... took money from dad again ... 300 PLN as usual, not sure how often ...

... this time my married brother Adam was there, with his wife, Monika, interfering annoyance ...

... he asked why i take money from dad? ...

... couldn't stop yelling at him ...

... he threatened me with Medic Car, probably with Psychiatry as well ...

What is insane, again ?

insanity detected,

in mind,

perhaps in form of 'hacking opposition' as well ...

are they insane to attack people who are trying at least to be beneficial?

Transient Psychotic Mantis?

what is Psychology, what is not ...

... is killing people 'sane' ?

see also, if You must ... : Emptiness, Transience., 'Psyche Riding?'.

'Peasantry' & 'Protection', ...

insanity in mind again ...

idea that i should eat for being protected by someone ...

is it form of rape?

rape against 'us'?

'us' at least in a way?

is it insane to think that i prefer to die instead?

i do not want to work for food only, i need money, respect, etc ... freedom as well, including freedom to fight for Enlightened Love, Magical Preferably ...

Feeding like a Priest ...

sometimes i have experiences of being 'fed forcefully against my will to calm down ... ' ...

i feel like being berated by 'a Priest' with more or less 'Godly' mind state.

even if that 'a Priest' is husband of 'a Friend'.

i don't know how delusional this is, clearly insanity still ... in this form or another ...

Uncaring Society, Hypocrisy, Loneliness, Cars, etc ...

there were no 'greek pancakes' at 'cold hell snacks shop' ...

then no 'meat pancakes',

had to buy 'kebab pancake', even if seller wanted me to buy two of these.

baby cars of other people & street cars of other people haunt me still ...

i keep shouting / yelling at these whores with babies in baby cars on street(s), calling them names ...

probably because of loneliness, uncaring society, whores & stealers them all ...

Psychology in my opinion ...

i think it's the 'Psychological Hell' to question sanity of therapist that someone is ...

... as well as of others, probably perhaps ...

to questions one's delusions, sanity, professionally, as part of lifestyle & the Way perhaps even ...

i think many wish to prove that Psychologists are insane, more or less immaturely ...

but who would solve their problems if not these Professionals?

by my experience, psychologists are not giving You 'nice experience', but perhaps this helps truly instead of 'sweet lies'.

Mental Hospital as Prison?

do sick people have right for Love?

if not, what's the reason for life?

perhaps suicide is better option, anyway ...

see also, if You wish or need, etc ... : http://producingbuddhism.blogspot.com/2015/05/issues.html .

'Clicky Samsara', part second ...

feeling like automaton used for click,

but if that's the way for Enlightened Love, i accept ...

hope they won't kill or enslave me after i help though ...

i am 37 years old & still alone ...

perhaps suicide is best option though ?

'Ego Attack'?

insights or delusions suggest that i suffer from 'ego attack' from 'Professional Competition' in 'Computing' area mostly,

from 'Stupa House', 'sangowe.info', perhaps more ...

i don't know if it's 'truth' or just 'a manipulation',

that 'Someone's Boyfriend' has complexes when i do something 'Powerful', as 'Martial Arts' or 'Advanced Science', etc ...

i don't mind losing 'Privileges of the Science', helping other way(s),

i just need Enlightened Love & Enlightenment.

... but why i had to learn & work for so long for others anyway?

Sentimentalism, Pitfalls of ...

Distress Signal ...

'Clicky Samsara' went too far...

insanity encroaches many a being, more or less related to this person that writes this post, endangering possibly others as well, perhaps ...

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