Symptoms' causes.

i think in my case it's noise - including shouts, children's noises, or football's, and stress - including stress caused by eating too much.

also failing at hygiene or shaving.

but also the internet & computer games - especially online game named 'Narfell' - if done too much.


recently heard about omams, cause of visual or other hallucinations is malfunction of nervous system or brain.

certain nerves & synapses activate because of something else than intended, because of internal mind states for example, instead or not only because of hearing a real voice or seeing a real image.

Can Martial Arts be Therapeutic?

i think yes.

Doctor with who i talked with a while ago said that i should train.

Madness & Insanity.

- what are the differencies between the Madness & Insanity?
- in my opinion Madness is Holy, state of Mind where psychological or social untruths are overcome, when Love & Happiness can be Experienced. There's no Love without Madness, they say.... insanity on the other hand, is an illness, psychological & physical symptoms, often violent. at this point of my life, i know i have these two mixed, but trying to improve.

- how insanity can be transformed to madness?
- i am experimenting, but think that pills (medicines), psychological therapy, helping others & religious practices such as Drukpa Kunley's Way can help. we'll see.

- what are the benefits of being in relationship with a Madman (as opposed to Insane)?
- he doesn't have too many expectations, lesser ego, so likely won't abuse partner that way - it's gentler relationship; he is used to being mistreated, he has no dignity anyway, so as well can do strange things or say strange things for loved one & children when it's neccessary. if neccessary to defend loved one or children there are less barriers such as pride or social restraints to overcome.